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hi i'm rachel and i regret not taking enough chances.

Shyness is a disease. Even though I focus on it too much; you can never let go. You can never have fun. It's a pain. Inside, I just want to scream and let go and be done.

"How do I begin to
count and divide all the times
silence has sat unevenly between us,
wouldn't try to tabulate
the mistakes
still I wonder how long we
should wait before we
state the obvious...
that we've earned the dubious distinction of
making
strangers
from friends"

what an amazing poem. this is how i'm feeling right now. sums it up.

well, it's been a good day. :) thank gosh. i needed a good day. umm...getting into twitter again. yippeeee. i actually turned the on button for the mobile part. where it texts you all the people you're following's updates. :) mucho love<3

2 Days Off

Well hello tharr..
;]
How ya doing? Well, I'm doing pretty good. Rested. I've been home since the week started. Woot! There was psats or bat or whatever it's called.. testing for the 9th and 10th graders on monday so I didn't have to go to school. ;] Today is Tuesday, and the 11th graders were getting tested(me) but we already took that test! Don't ask. I have no idea why they want us to take the PRACTICE test twice. Makes no sense to me.

So, I'm home. In my pajamas. Chilling.
I got a Tumblr. ;] Follow me. I'll follow you.
My Tumblr: http://rachelforever954.tumblr.com/

and in case you forgot about all my other crap I have,

My Twitter: http://twitter.com/rachelforever93
My Youtube: http://www.youtube.com/user/rachelforever954
My Dailybooth: http://dailybooth.com/rachelforever954

woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooot.
<3 you guys. thanks for following my blog. it means more than you can imagine. ;]<3

i have a hint of evil ! :D

My Personality Color ;]

I took the "The Color Personality" quiz on gURL.com
		My personality is... blue You're a cool and collected blue... According to color psychology, you're the very picture of serenity. You're probably great at keeping calm and clear-headed when others are freaking out... Read more... What color is your personality?

Just A Thought

Don't you hate when you sleepover your friend's house and you're the first to wake up? And now you gotta wait for your friend to wake up. Or even worse, the mom wakes up too. Sees you waiting for her. And then starts talking to you? Ugh. I know how you feel.

MADE.

OK. I JUST GOTTA BLOG ABOUT THIS REAL QUICK.
Well, I just finished watched MADE on mtv. Most friggin' amazing show ever. Well. I don't have a T.V. so I have to watch all my television shows on the internet. Well, not too long ago I found out about MADE and TRUE LIFE. I am now hooked.
But I'm not blogging about that.
I'm blogging about the episode I just watched!!!
It was about 3 girls who want to be models. Only problem is. 2 of them are insecure. And awkward. The 3rd one is just blahh. She's confident but..just not one of the great ones in the episode.
So I watch it. And there's a part where this girl comes in. Kind of like a physcologist. And she helps them with their insecurity. I couldn't help but tear up. I went through that all of sophmore year. And I got out of the knot by myself. I learned how to be confident. Or at least get a little better. I mean I'm not like the most confident girl you will ever meet but at least it's a step forward. I still have steps to go but at least I know that it's possible to do.
Oh that episode just teared me up. I know how those girls feel!
Just had to blog about it.

And if you ever visit mtv.com. Look up MADE. And click the one called model challenge or something like that. Hope it touches you as much as it did me.

Well..

Got some explaining to do huh? Yeah. So...

My last post was when I was in school. I'm so over that depressing stage.

Sophmore year was just real hard for me. I didn't know how to get through it. I think it was just me growing up. I had to find myself. Or not find myself. But understand myself. And mature up. I'm so much better now. I realized that I wasn't the only one going through it. I just needed someone to talk to about it. (thanks tilly. i love you for life.)

I realized that I'm unique. And that I don't have to turn into a blonde hott shot. That I can be my own person.

I realized that my personality rocks.

And that sometimes I have bad days.

But better days always come around again.

I realized that God has helped me.

I realized that I have become friends with people because I'm happy for who I am.

And they notice.

I'm happy that I'm down2earth. That my friends can talk to me about anything.

I'm just ok now.

Ok to be myself. Ok to express my feelings. Ok to be

real.

A real human being. With feelings. Thoughts. And desires.

And I have friends who I can express everything too.

And that it just awesome.

Well my summer has been amazing. Even though it's not over yet, I just want to let you all know. My 9 followers. haha. That I will blog over the year. ;] I will try to blog everyday.

Well that's basically all I wanted to say.
Thank you for listening to me. And my cries. You helped me so much.

Just listening to me.

Just reading what I'm going through.

It helped.

Thanks again. love you.

Insecurity

This insecurity is terrible.
And it's not insecurity about my looks.
I'm just insecure at school.
In my insides, I feel insecure.
About the simplest things.
Like today.
Today, I was coming out of the bathroom and I saw a guy I knew.
So I wave.
Then I notice there's a girl walking next to him and I all the sudden walk and wave insecurely. And all the sudden FEEL insecure.
I've realized recently, it's not the school.

It's me.

*Thank you "Anonymous" for commenting.

WRONG

There IS something wrong with me.
And I don't care who says there isn't.
I know myself and this is not how I always have been.
I WAS once happy.
I'm so sick of this.
I need a physiciatrist. Oh, God!

Please help me.

Mom

My mom prayed for me in the car this morning.
The few words she prayed started my day off right.
Now I know I can't let go of my pride and say thank you to you so I will on here.

Thank you mom.

God, Please

Well, at least I know my tears are working.
I want to throw in the towel.
I really do.
Tonight, my parents told me the whole calvary school idea is over.
My dad gets paid too much so we can't get financial aid.
But we also can't afford it.
That school wasn't a light at the end of the tunnel, but it symbolized a candle.
Now, it's over.
I hate Florida.
And I hate how my life has been.
I'm so insecure.
I've never been at the right schools.
I was never at the right place at the right time.
God, I'm crying out to you.
What is your plan for me.
Show me the way.
I'm giving it all to you.

Please.

Friendship

So, Jose..
The topic is friendship.
Well,
...
That's easy.
Friendship=you.
You understand me the most.
Out of anyone.
You always give me encouragement.
Even when I don't need it at the moment.
;]
I rather have you than 20 girlfriends.
You know exactly who you are and it's great.
I'm so glad we have become so much closer.
Even though were so far away, we still find a way to talk.
It's amazing.
You are one of a kind, Jose.
Never change, ever.
I love you oh so much buddyboo.

Yours Truly,
Rachel. Your buddyboo.

<3

Freckles

I have freckles all over both my knees.
Just thought I'd share that with you.

I think it's pretty awesome if you ask me.

Environment

Environment is everything.
Yesterday we looked at a cute little villa in a peacefulpeaceful city.
Were probably buying it.
The neighborhood is so laid back and peaceful.
I love it.
There is a little lake slash canal in the backyard.
I can take such great pictures and videos there.
Also, there's so much greenery in the whole city.
ALSO, there is 3 pools AND a country club with 2 restaurants, a pool table, gym, and another pool.
AHHHH!
It's like the city and house is made for me.
It has everything I like there.
I hope we buy it.
I'll be so much more happier and relaxed.

And feel great.

Physiciatrist

I wrote an email to a physiciatrist tonight.
She has a youtube and a couple of her videos were talking about social anxiety.
I found a video called possible causes on social anxiety.
Some of the causes and symptoms she named seemed somewhat like me.
I'm terrified.
So, I emailed her explaining my problems and asking her to help me.
Hopefully she writes back and helps me.

I can't believe my thoughts and feelings could go this far.
To maybe actual problems.
Or phobias.

I hope not.

Pictures

I'm looking through old pictures right now and seriously upset.
It's really depressing.
I was so happy then.
I look all smiley and giggly.
It was easy.
I look like a little angel.
I wish I felt like that now.

Life was so carefree.

Countdown

27 more days.
I think I'm the most ready.
This has been the worst year of my life slash some good days.
I think I made more friends than any year but that doesn't make up for the feelings I've had. And turmoil.
It NEVER crossed my mind before how a simple environment

can change so much.

Complicated

I don't remember life being this complicated.
I remember waking up to sunlight and it made me so happy.
It was a new day.
And I was rested.
And HAPPY.
I miss that so much.
Now, I just wake up to another depressing day.
I want to be happy again.

Years

I'm not sure what I like what I've become over the years.
I look back at pictures from my bat-mitzvah and yearbooks and more pictures and it's just making me angry.
I miss loving life.
And I miss life not feeling this complicated.

Cypress

You know what cypress is lacking?
Well, cypress lacks a lot of things.
But the main thing?
Real people.
Real people you can pour your heart out too.
Share your emotions with.
Out of 5,000 people, I found no one like that.
Maybe I'm not looking hard enough but that's how it's been to me.
Everyone just hangs out with whoever is popular.
Or pretty.
Or loud.
Obnoxious.
Outspoken.
There's no one that I can talk to.
About what's REALLY going on.
No one cares about what's really going on in the person they sit next to's life.
It's crazy.
Everyone is so stuck up.
Sometimes I think that I'm the only real person at cypress.
Or maybe I'm the least real.
Maybe that's how it goes now.
Everyone keeps everything on the inside and acts like a total different person on the outside.
It's really sad.

And I'm starting to not be able to take it.

Sleep

I'm sleep deprived.
I need sleep so badly.
I went to sleep at 1 last night.
I thought since it was the weekend and I was a little rested,
I would be okay today.
But I was wrong.
I hardly remember my alarm clock going off.
I was basically sleep walking to all my classes.
I hate being tired at school because it changes the way I am that day.
My personality I guess.
I don't feel like Rachel.
I read something on the internet which said when you're sleepy, you act insecure sometimes.
Or you think too much.
Just because you're tired.

I am DEFINENTLY going to sleep early tonight.

Devil

The devil is trying to put negative thoughts in my mind.
I'm fighting back but it's hard.
I will succeed though.
I have God on my side.
The devil must have some nerve.

He better step back.

Shoutout

Just want to make a shoutout to one of my really good friends.
JOSE RODRIGUEZ.
:)
Thank you for encouraging me.
And the amazing help you give and gave to lift my spirit up.

I love you so very much.

<3

UGLY PANTS

Dressing very ugly tonight.
My dance teacher is making us wear the ugliest pants under the ugliest dress.
I look like one giant air balloon.
And boy does it stink being short.
I barely need the pants.
The dress goes all the way down to my toes basically.
At least the dress is purple.
My favorite color.
My brother is being one spoiled brat right about now.
He keep whining.
I'm about to take a pot and knock him out.
Today is going good so far.
Nice weather.
Were dancing at a nursing home tonight.
Not my favorite place to dance but were going to make the senior citizens happy.
And then we get to talk to them after.
I remember when I was in 2nd grade I think, I went to a nursing home and I gave an old lady a card.
She had one eye.
It tramatized me for the remaining of the year.
Hm.
I never quite got over that.
I hope tonight,

the whole audience has two eyes.

Happy

Having a great day.
I never wrote that here have I?
This is a first.
:)
Anyways, I an finally learning how to not care what people say or think.
You know how bad it used to be?
I used to not even get up and throw something away.
I thought everyone would look at me or laugh.
Or something.
I'm so happy that's over.
I am also trying new things.
Different makeup with different outfits.
Wearing my bangs different ways.
Different hairstyles.
Clothes out of the norm.
It's really fun trying new things actually.
Wouldn't life be boring doing the same thing every day?
So repetitive.
So I'm happy.
I feel rejuvenated.
Refreshed.

A new me.

Earth Day

I am so bored in math class.
We have a substitute today.
Thank God.
I hate my math teacher.
And she hates me so it's all good.
:)
Anyways, Happy Earth Day!
I'm wearing all green today. ALL green.
So this is my outfit:
a green shirt,
jean shorts,
green and white stockings(lol),
slip in shoes,
and a purple scarf.
:)
I've been getting a lot of compliments so I thought that was cool.

Once again, math can go die.

Cry

So. I have some friends.
A couple good ones.
And that makes me happy.
So, I'm not a total loner.
I'm still thinking of the pastor and how Godly he is.
He made it all make sense.
What a man of God he is.
I'm definently going to the next conference.
Just to cry again.
Crying feels so good.
I can never cry at home.
It's always in the wrong places.
Like school.
But in church, I can.
And it feels so good.
Listening to the pastor's annointing spirit,
having God inside those walls,
and just crying to him.
Both of them I guess.

It's my own personal healing.

Hiding

I'm tired of hiding.
Hiding my individuality.
I want to express who I and and what I like.
It's easier said than done.
That's for sure.

Pray for me.

School

Right now, i'm sitting on concrete waiting for the coach to dismiss us to dress out.
I feel so depressed and blah.
1st hour is always terrible.
I'm so quiet and shy.
And depressed I guess you could say.
I hate this school so much.
The environment sucks.
I hope it's not me and just the school.
I'm fine over the weekend.
I'm fine being alone.
But, here, being alone isn't accepted.
You need to be a stuck up slut

or hispanic and obnoxious.

THE OUTPOURING!

I can not explain how amazing last night went.
Amazing isn't even the word.
We were invited to dance at this church right?
Video up soon.
So after all the dances including us showed everyone their dances,

THE PASTORS STARTED TO TALK.

You don't understand.

I can't even explain what I felt.

The pastor's words were just so filled with the holy spirit.

I couldn't contain myself.

I started crying.

Tears started pouring out of my eyes.

He was talking about glory and souls.

God's holy spirit WAS in those walls.

So, basically the whole church was on their knees.

Crying, screaming, or just flat out praying.

All youth people.

I was hysterical.

After an hour went by,

Things started happening.

MIRACLES.

The pastor started seeing some of the people's problems.

He named my dad's problem in his eye without my dad telling him!

He's like "I see an eye problem. Not sure what the problem is but it's in the right eye."

And my dad was shocked how he knew!

Out of about 200 people, he knew what was wrong with my dad.

This pastor healed so many people last night.

This girl walked in that church with skin cancer.

Black dots all over her arms.

He started saying he saw a girl with skin cancer.

That girl ran up to the stage so fast.

I couldn't believe it.

The dots were GONE!

Her skin cancer was..GONE.

God did that.

He healed more and more people that night.

Just with the pastor's annointing.

The pastor starting saying there's glitter.

"Check your hands, check your clothes."

I checked my clothes, my hands.

No glitter.

Then I checked the floor.

There was silver glitter around me!

Right where I was on my knees.

Surrounding me!

Ms. Arlene, my dance teacher, told my dad she saw glitter behind us dancers.

The whole row behind us was filled with glitter!

I'm not making this up.

GOD WAS IN THE BUILDING LAST NIGHT.

He changed me.

So then as i'm still hystericaly crying,

He calls up everyone who wants to accept Jesus into their heart.

I ran up to the altar so fast.

We all said a prayer.

Receiving Jesus into our hearts.

AND THEN.

One of the pastor's had four books in his hand.

Books he wrote!

He said "You need to go buy this book. It will change your life."

AND THEN.

HE GAVE NAPHTALIE AND I AND TWO OTHERS HIS BOOK.

When he gave me his book he looked straight into my eyes and said "If I have a daughter someday, I hope she looks like you. I love your curly hair. And you have such gorgeous eyes. You're beautiful."

HE SAID THAT WHILE HE WAS ON STAGE IN FRONT OF EVERYONE.

That made me feel so good.

Then, we went into a room and they gave us a form to fill out so they can call us to see how were doing once in a while.

Then, I got my book signed by the pastor who wrote it!

I think he knows God is going to do something special in my life or something.

I'm not sure.

All I know is, I accepted Jesus Christ into my heart and into my life.

FOR GOOD.

FOR GOOD.

I always have to see something before I believe it,

So when I started seeing proof,

I knew God exists.

That doesn't just happen.

Diseases don't just go away.

Cancer doesn't just go away.

Unless God is there.

And he was there last night.

And he made

CANCER.

DISEASES.

SICKNESSES.

Go away.

And I call that absolutely amazing.

Ugh.

There has to be a better word.

Amazing isn't even the word.

DanceDanceDance

Dance performance in a little bit.
Too close.
I think my heart just might jump out of my chest.

Pray for me my 5 followers. :/.

Townhouse

Just finished looking at a townhouse up for rent.
It was amazing.
So peaceful.
I felt no stress.
There was no annoying teenagers that I go to school with running around. I
felt myself there.
Wholesome.
My parents liked it too.
One part I loved which I wanted my whole life, is stairs.
I love stairs. :)
I love 2 stories.
Another thumbs up besides the stairs and peacefulness was the room I would call mine is upstairs and it has a balcony. :)
So when I have to get out somewhere, I can go out and sit on my balcony OR I can go and relax at the most beautiful lake i've ever seen.
It's just simply beautiful.
There's trees around the lake too.
And the lake is all sparkely.

It's so gorgeous.

If

*reads my shirt*

"Laugh everyday. All day. Hahaha. That's definently you Rachel."

Yeah, if only she knew.

Awkward

I hate being so awkward with everyone i'm around.
I talk awkwardly.
I walk awkwardly.
I even stand awkwardly.
It aggravates me so much.
Tonight, I was talking to my friend and a guy.
And I felt like I was being so awkward.
It's always like that. I need so much help.
I need so many questions answered.
And everything is left unsaid.
I want to be myself again.

There is nothing to say.

I just need actions.

And fast.

Hmm.

Feeling good.
Let's see if the moment stays.
I'm talking about a miracle.

.......

Dance Practice

Dance practice was terrible.
Probably because I haven't been myself for a while.
I'm trying to find myself. I really am.
It's supposed to be fun but right now,
it ain't fun.
I'm just really serious and depressed sometimes.
Everything ticked me off today. I was doing everything wrong.
One thing I did right today though was I stuck up for myself while someone was trying to bring me lower than I am already.
I hope I find myself soon because this horrible feeling inside is taking a toll on me.

Oh, and hi Mike. :) You made my day so much better by just simply messaging me on youtube. Thank you so much.

Taylor Swift

I love Taylor Swift so much.
She speaks her mind.
Even though they're just love songs, I can tell she has a heart.
She kind of reminds me of me?
And we have the same hair.
I'm so glad I got her newest album for my birthday.
Thank you Jenna. :)

The simple thing as a CD brightens my day.

I'm very unique in some ways...

NEVER RENT.

Hi. I'm pissed.
My shower is a disgrace.
I'm renting right? DON'T EVER DO IT. I have no water pressure or water heat in my shower. Whenever I start to take a shower it's fine.
Then, out of nowhere, it starts turning cold.
So I turn it more to the left.
Then, my water pressure gets less and less until I can hardly get all the soap out of my hair!

We pay this guy so much money every month to rent and he's heartless! He keeps sending all these stupid workers who have no idea what they're doing just to keep avoiding the problem! UGH. NEVER RENT. EVER. badwordbadwordbadword.

Thinking

People with all different personalities.
Confident.
Knows it all.
How do you find one to call your own?
Make yourself unique.

Make yourself known.

WHAT IS THIS WORLD COMING TO?

I just have to share this with y'all.
I honestly can't believe my eyes. The eyes that God gave me.
I can't believe this.
The world is sick.
Sick, sick, sick.
Look at this:
http://www.hottopic.com/hottopic/store/product.jsp?FOLDER%3C%3Efolder_id=2534374302028445&PRODUCT%3C%3Eprd_id=845524442186742&bmUID=1239299705783

YMJA!

I am just thinking of what to write and it has become very....

OVERWELMING.

Basically, I had the best weekend ever.

BEST. WEEKEND. EVER.

It was 3 days of complete joy, laughter, and FUN.

I'm...speechless.

I don't know what to say.

There was water tubing, praise&worship, new people, new friends, happiness, and JOY.

I'm making a video about it.

check it out?

I Just Don't Know

I just really don't.
I always have this feeling in my gut sometimes where I just want to yell and scream and make a scene. NO ONE knows the real me when I'm like this. It's just this year. I've just turned into this monster since 10th grade. I call it a monster because I hate how I feel. I feel like a monster. A monster who can't find his herd. His place.
I feel like a monster because I don't fit in. Monsters don't fit in do they?


I write on here because I have no one else to tell. I have to get it out somewhere.
It gets bottled up inside of me where no more feelings can fit. I just have to explode.
I have a great friend Alex. But he's only there for me sometimes. So I guess he's not a good friend. He said he's not good with "the phone."
We can't see each other much because we live far away and he says he's like that with the phone because we can't see each other much. Which I think is total bull.
Youth Retreat tomorrow.
Great.


Sorry if this doesn't make sense to you. I just took what was inside of my endless brain and starting typing.
I'm so glad I can make blogs like this. It makes me feel so much better.
Just getting it out.
And off my chest.

Untitled

Finding yourself may sound REALLY easy to you.

To me,

it's the hardest puzzle I can't solve.

Hello Hello Hello

LONG TIME NO BLOG.

Anyways, today is Ashley's Birthday Party.
And the Naples Art Festival. :/

But I can't go to both.

It sucks because all my really good friends are going and their going to meet one of our friends that used to live here. Then she moved to Naples. And I was really looking forward to seeing her. I haven't seen her for almost a year practically.
But I can't cancel plans with Fanny (the host) because that's just plain wrong. I've learned that over the years. NEVER CANCEL PLANS. It just bites you in the butt later on.

But I like hanging out with Fanny and Ashley too. So, it's all good.

That's at 5.
In about an hour my dad is going to take me to the mall. Keyword: DAD. Don't know how that's going to turn out but we'll find out. I hope I get some nice clothes. I'M IN NEED.

Oh, and I really need a new bathing suit.

Maybe one like this?

That's kinda cute. Don't ya think?

I'll blog later.

And now she smiles

from tears.
to pain.
to sadness.
to depression.
she still thought. and thought. and thought.
and then she pulled it off.
she found herself in the jungle of darkness. it was a long journey.

but worth it.

UGH. THIS LIFE.

The famous question:
-WHO AM I?
The famous answer:
-I don't know.

I want to know who I am but it's just hard for me.

I want to be my own person.

But..I can't figure out why I'm here.

help?

High School

SHOULD BE ILLEGAL.

I mean seriously.

3/5=LOVE.

It's my birthday today!
I really don't have words of how today went. I am absolutely speachless. It was amazing.
My friends are amazing. My family is amazing. Raquel's cookies were amazing. The videos made for me were amazing. My 16th birthday was a success. The best day of my life. Literally.

<333
love you all so much.
hearthearthearthearts.

Daily Booth/Videos

New pictures on dailybooth.

http://dailybooth.com/rachelforever954

Great. Now you think I'm a conceited person, huh?

No, I really am not. I barely talk about myself. EVER.

If you don't know what daily booth is, it is a website where you just take pictures of yourself and post them to this website.

People can comment them with writing. Or with another picture. Follow you.
It's a really neat website.

So please follow me. =)

By the way, I'm going to start editing a video right now. I'm sorry it took me so long to make one. This video is actually going to be about my friend's birthday party. A beach film. =)

Stay tuned in to Rachel's youtube.

http://www.youtube.com/user/rachelforever954

Oh, and when you click that link ^, look at the newest comment.

It's so classy.

Well, it comes to my attention that if you get some haters on youtube, you must be getting popular.

I guess people are finding my page now.

And that makes me smile. :D

Birthday Soon

Talking to Jenna on DA phone..
Isn't the word "da" funny? I think so.
Anyways,
BIRTHDAY SOON. March 5th. I think I already put this topic in one of my blogs but whatever.

I love Taylor Swift's song Fifteen.
except, I would love to find out who I am desperately. How come everyone around me knows who they are already and is comfortable with themselves but I'm just....I don't know. Lost? I have a personality, but I don't know who I wanna be. I haven't FOUND my personality yet, kinda.. It's hard to explain.
Can someone give me some advice?

Secret Life

^

wow, that is one bad picture of all them.

Anyways, I just watched the Secret Life of The American Teenager online since I dont have a t.v. Ever since 4th grade. Yes, I've been surviving.

It was amazing, as always. I have to wait till Tuesday because it takes them a day to put it on the internet. But I got lazy, so I watched it today. If you haven't watched it yet, I would advise you to go to abcfamily.com.

=).

*Something you should know about me is on weekdays, I sleep in the car every afternoon after school. I know I know, you've never heard that before. That's just me.

Math can go die.

Math. IS NOT MY SUBJECT. I have math homework to do right now but I have no idea how to do it. I'm failing this stupid class. Math is not my thing. Why do we need it? I'm not going to become a math scientist or anything. I'm not going to graph my checks. Whoever made math hopefully is burning in hell right now. "No offence." Also, my dad won't let me drive until I get my grades up. I took the permit test and everything.

Ugh. I hate high school...I want to go back to middle.less stress.more friends.

1 New Follower.Carnival Today.

I logged on today. As usual. And it says I have a new follower! Thank you so much! Your blog name is fight for freedom. Do you know how happy that makes me? =)

Anyways, enough about that.

The.

Carnival.

Is.

Today.

So, yeah, I really like carnivals. The cotton candy, the cool prizes. NOT the rides. I'm am the biggest scardey cat on big drops, loops, heights. Basically everything. I really hope when I go, some of my friend's will be the same way because you can NEVER convince me. Not after I was convinced to go on The Hurricane years ago.

The Hurricane is this huge roller coaster in Boomers. It is all made out of wood. Big drops. No loops. A huge turn that goes around the highway. She said the drop wasn't big. So, I go on it. As were going straight up, I ask her "Why is it going straight up?" Her answer: OMG! I FORGOT TO TELL YOU THERE IS ABOUT UH...I THINK TWO HUGE DROPS THAT I EVEN CRIED ON BEFORE!

-.-

Let's just say she's not my friend anymore. Not for that reason though. It should of been. haha.

Oh no. You read it right. It says Strawberry Mint.

Aunt's House.Bored.

I'm at my aunt's house and this is how it's going.....
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So I decided to do a survey.
*A little about me*

Favorite colors: purple. and that's it.
Favorite things: computer. snowball. cellphone
Favorite foods: sushi.
How I like to be treated: respectfully
What is a turn on for you: sweet talk.
Do you like to travel: yep.
What type of music do you like: anything that sounds good.
Are you passionate: i guess?
What states have you lived in: florida.
Type of movies you like to watch: made of honor.
What do you look for in a man: nice smile. muscles, but not overly exaggerated. nice eyes. cute voice. way they handle themselves.
What type of person would you say you are: funny, honest, fun.

Lemons&Fights

My eyes were just twitching from eating a lemon. I'M SO SORRY I'M SO WEIRD. I REALLY AM. But, those lemons were good. Jenna got me into them. Ironically, they satisfy your stomach. My mom thought it was strange how I just woke up this morning and went to the refrigerator to fetch a lemon. But hey, I think they whiten your teeth. Not sure. But I need that if they do.

Got into an argument with my friend. I accused her of lying because I knew she was and she called me a bitch. A bitch for knowing that she was lying. Well, she couldn't make up any more excuses so she finally admitted she lied. But whatever, she's lied to me A LOT. After she apologized, she starting lying again and made up stories about something. I just went along with it and played that game so whatever. Glad the year is almost over so I can escape from this bad dream.

*Weekend though. So I'm happy.

<-----Found this on the internet. Little late for Valentine's Day but this is how my heart feels right now.

Gifts and Friends

This is what I got from my parents. I really wasn't expecting anything so this made me happy. There is jellybeans inside of that teddy bear bowl. They taste really good. I had a fun time with Jenna and Stacy. They make my day refreshed and fun. =) After I left, I went to CVS and bought cream soda and the new mountain dew. The new mountain dew is called mountain dew voltage. It's a blue bottle and it has Ginseng-energy boost, raspberry, and citrus flavor. It basically made me bounce off the walls. Then I edited 2 videos which are up there now. Check em' out. Peace. Rachel.

=/ ehhh

My parents are yelling at me to get in the shower but I just need to share this new quote with you!
*If you stop wanting something, you'll get it.*
How true is that! Hope you're having a lovely valentines day so far. Stay safe~
......I hope people read these......well, if your not, I enjoy writing these so I don't care.
But uh. Follow me? pretty please with a cherry on top?
OH AND WHIPPED CREAM.

Psh. Valentine's Day.

As you can see, Valentines Day is not my favorite holiday. I've never had a boyfriend so I've never experienced the greatness of this holiday. Anyways,
I went to Jenna's house today and saw all my friends. =) I'm invited to my friend's 16's so were all recording a dance to "Wine it up."-with a little twist. It's going to turn out great. Skipping temple today. Thank God. I was definently not in the mood of going. The youth person/dude/I guess rabbi/I don't know is really bad at making music. "No offence." Don't you hate that phrase? It has no meaning to it. So if I say your ugly and then say "no offence" then it's not offensive? That little phrase drives me crazy. Basically everytime someone says something and then says "no offence" afterwards, it probably WAS offensive.
*Off to eat some lima bean casserole. Sounds so delicious right? Wrong.*

Cant Wait Till June

I love how I can write on here about how I REALLY feel today. No pretending.
Don't comment on how I look today. My mom did my bangs terrible but I didn't feel like putting them up in a weird clip. FCAT Writes were today or whatever you call it. I think I did good but usually I'm wrong when I say that. I don't know why but when I'm in 1st and 2nd hour, I'm so paranoid and anti-social. What does that mean? That never happened last year. I can't wait till the end of the year. I'm gonna cry with joy that I'm not coming back. Sorry friends..... I'm making a new video. It's called "The Real Me." I wrote what I'm going to say. Now I just have to videotape it. I'm so tired of everyone talking about drugs and how their "high" weekend went. I won't give you any more details because you will just want to vomit like I want to every day of hell called "school." Thanks for reading. New video soon. Love you all. xoxoxoxoxo. Rachel.

Because I Had A Good Day *Virus Gone.

Finally found out how to get rid of the virus. I forgot to tell you. I'm a computer freak! That's basically all I do is go on the computer. I know, I know. I'm a geek but I really don't care. =) So finding out how to delete a virus!-is pretty insane. I'm proud of myself. Thank you everyone for commenting on my "updates" video. You make me so happy when I come home from a long day to see nice comments all over my page. Thank you so much. So this is basically what I look like today. ^^^^
Not great. I don't really like pigtails that much but their better than a huge pony tail on my head. I also had gym today. So, I had to put my bangs up. My coach almost killed us today. He made us do these horrible exercises. I think they were called bugles? I don't know but it involved weights and running and push ups, which I hate. Well, I gotta go eat some pizza now and get ready for tutoring.
=(. I love you all who read this. xoxoxoxo. Rachel. <3

Virus. *My First Blog!

Hello everyone. For whoever is reading this, I'm Rachel. This is my first blog so I would like to introduce myself and tell you a little about me.
I'm very unique. Nuff said.
I can honestly say that I think I have a good sense of humor. When I make my friend's laugh, that makes me happy. =)
I'm a sophmore. Can't wait to grow up. I know, everyone I know doesn't want to grow up either. But, where I live, all you want to DO is grow up. I live in a sort of city (not telling) where only the looks count. If your a blonde, barbie girl with double D's and a stuck-up attitude, you'll get so many friends. That's just how it is. I don't fit this catagory at all and I choose not to. There is so much more than looks. I look at people's hearts. If your heart is in the wrong place, don't count on me being your friend.
I live in Florida.
I cannot wait to move. I'm not moving out of Florida, but definently out of this stuck up, snobby city.
I can't wait to meet people that don't only care about your looks but your personality.
I'm short. That really SHOULD be my trademark. I'm 4'11 and proud. Who wouldn't be proud to be short? You can get any man you want because they'll all be taller than you. =) What guy wants a too tall of a girl?
I have blue/green eyes. Depends on the clothes I wear. They change. I always get compliments on my eyes, which makes me happy. =) Unlike some people I've met recently, I AM a compliments person. The recent people I've met aren't good with compliments. Who doesn't like when people have something nice to say about you? I don't know either.
I have brown, curly, thick, unbearable, hair. It's really crazy of how thick it is. People love to tell me they want to straighten it someday. I just tell them they don't know what's ahead of them.
I have the cutest dog ever. Her name is Snowball and I would die without her. She is honestly my good luck charm. But she's more than luck to me.
I have an unhealthy obsession with YouTube. http://www.youtube.com/user/rachelforever954 <--This is my youtube channel. I usually make at least one video every weekend. Please subscribe to me.
I've never had a boyfriend... No one has been good enough to be my first. Hopefully, I get one soon. Maybe I'll get one for my birthday? =)
My birthday is March 5th.
Please don't forget it. --I think that sums up my Introduction! Now to today. 2/8/09. This morning, I woke up at about 12:30 after I slept over my friend's house. She straightened my hair last night. So I tried to make a video of my straightened hair.(thanks to Tilly) The video turned out great. So I went to get music from Limewire. (bad idea) I accidently opened a "music file" that I knew wasn't a music file. Then Norton all the sudden pops up with a virus alert. I'm like CRAP! It says its an "unrepairable virus." Even better. So, I try to find this virus with a removable tool to remove it, but it was playing hide and seek with me! UGH! So, that's what's going on right now. I'm so pissed. I love my computer with a passion. I need to save it! D= So I think this is a long enough blog for an introduction. If you read all this, you're my hero. P.s. Here is a video about what happened today that I uploaded to youtube.

New favorite song: 1,2,3,4-Plain White Tees. Status-Angry/Concerned