2 Days Off

Well hello tharr..
;]
How ya doing? Well, I'm doing pretty good. Rested. I've been home since the week started. Woot! There was psats or bat or whatever it's called.. testing for the 9th and 10th graders on monday so I didn't have to go to school. ;] Today is Tuesday, and the 11th graders were getting tested(me) but we already took that test! Don't ask. I have no idea why they want us to take the PRACTICE test twice. Makes no sense to me.

So, I'm home. In my pajamas. Chilling.
I got a Tumblr. ;] Follow me. I'll follow you.
My Tumblr: http://rachelforever954.tumblr.com/

and in case you forgot about all my other crap I have,

My Twitter: http://twitter.com/rachelforever93
My Youtube: http://www.youtube.com/user/rachelforever954
My Dailybooth: http://dailybooth.com/rachelforever954

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<3 you guys. thanks for following my blog. it means more than you can imagine. ;]<3

i have a hint of evil ! :D

My Personality Color ;]

I took the "The Color Personality" quiz on gURL.com
		My personality is... blue You're a cool and collected blue... According to color psychology, you're the very picture of serenity. You're probably great at keeping calm and clear-headed when others are freaking out... Read more... What color is your personality?

Just A Thought

Don't you hate when you sleepover your friend's house and you're the first to wake up? And now you gotta wait for your friend to wake up. Or even worse, the mom wakes up too. Sees you waiting for her. And then starts talking to you? Ugh. I know how you feel.

MADE.

OK. I JUST GOTTA BLOG ABOUT THIS REAL QUICK.
Well, I just finished watched MADE on mtv. Most friggin' amazing show ever. Well. I don't have a T.V. so I have to watch all my television shows on the internet. Well, not too long ago I found out about MADE and TRUE LIFE. I am now hooked.
But I'm not blogging about that.
I'm blogging about the episode I just watched!!!
It was about 3 girls who want to be models. Only problem is. 2 of them are insecure. And awkward. The 3rd one is just blahh. She's confident but..just not one of the great ones in the episode.
So I watch it. And there's a part where this girl comes in. Kind of like a physcologist. And she helps them with their insecurity. I couldn't help but tear up. I went through that all of sophmore year. And I got out of the knot by myself. I learned how to be confident. Or at least get a little better. I mean I'm not like the most confident girl you will ever meet but at least it's a step forward. I still have steps to go but at least I know that it's possible to do.
Oh that episode just teared me up. I know how those girls feel!
Just had to blog about it.

And if you ever visit mtv.com. Look up MADE. And click the one called model challenge or something like that. Hope it touches you as much as it did me.

Well..

Got some explaining to do huh? Yeah. So...

My last post was when I was in school. I'm so over that depressing stage.

Sophmore year was just real hard for me. I didn't know how to get through it. I think it was just me growing up. I had to find myself. Or not find myself. But understand myself. And mature up. I'm so much better now. I realized that I wasn't the only one going through it. I just needed someone to talk to about it. (thanks tilly. i love you for life.)

I realized that I'm unique. And that I don't have to turn into a blonde hott shot. That I can be my own person.

I realized that my personality rocks.

And that sometimes I have bad days.

But better days always come around again.

I realized that God has helped me.

I realized that I have become friends with people because I'm happy for who I am.

And they notice.

I'm happy that I'm down2earth. That my friends can talk to me about anything.

I'm just ok now.

Ok to be myself. Ok to express my feelings. Ok to be

real.

A real human being. With feelings. Thoughts. And desires.

And I have friends who I can express everything too.

And that it just awesome.

Well my summer has been amazing. Even though it's not over yet, I just want to let you all know. My 9 followers. haha. That I will blog over the year. ;] I will try to blog everyday.

Well that's basically all I wanted to say.
Thank you for listening to me. And my cries. You helped me so much.

Just listening to me.

Just reading what I'm going through.

It helped.

Thanks again. love you.

Insecurity

This insecurity is terrible.
And it's not insecurity about my looks.
I'm just insecure at school.
In my insides, I feel insecure.
About the simplest things.
Like today.
Today, I was coming out of the bathroom and I saw a guy I knew.
So I wave.
Then I notice there's a girl walking next to him and I all the sudden walk and wave insecurely. And all the sudden FEEL insecure.
I've realized recently, it's not the school.

It's me.

*Thank you "Anonymous" for commenting.